I don’t know what is wrong with me. I am so depressed. I just feel like crying all the time.Why am I like this?I know u think its one of my drama. You think I am just looking for reasons to give you hard time. God!! I don’t know .. I know I wasn’t like this.. I was strong. I knew what I was doing with my life. I am so confused now. I am so lost. I am completely a different person now. I am not happy the way we are. I am not happy at all..I am not sure where we are going?? I feel like I am stuck. I feel like there is no way out.. I am dying inside.. I have made a biggest mistake in my life.. And I regret for that every single day… I hate myself. You are never there to listen to me. When I start talking about how I feel , you completely shut me out. You either become stone or you just tell me off. What do I do? What are my options?? I am so lonely..I feel neglected. I thought you were my whole world. You were my everything.. It was stupid to think that way. I was so blindly in love with you that I didn’t think of any consequences of the mistake... But now I think your spell is over. But after your affair with her, everything changed. I am hurt so badly. I tried pulling myself together but My heart still remained in small pieces. I know you were not sleeping with her but you told her you loved her. That’s a big word. It has torn me into pieces. I know you are with me now. But just the physical presence is not enough.. We hardly do anything that a couple do. We are just housemates living under the same roof.. Lately, I have started evaluating our situation. I started thinking how will I cope in future with you. You and I are so different. I am not saying you are bad. Now I realise that you are not the type of guy I want to spend the rest of my life. I keep telling you what I need. But you never give me that. I want emotional support. I need my partner to encourage me, listen to me, and take care of me. I never got that. I know I can’t be happy with you.. and can’t make you happy either..I know you don’t complain anything to me. It is because you don’t even care. .. I don’t know what do I do now?? I am so sad. And I know its not easy to break up as we are so entangled to many commitments together. I wish I could just fly away from all the pain that is in my heart.