thanx every one for ur comments. and thanx for the offers, but really i'm down n don't want anything to do with love...dunno if i'll ever be..... and yeah highvoltage, u r right that i'm not perfect either. i've my own flaws. i agree that i can't watch porn with him. it's me! i found out first on a very bad day. i was having an emotional breakdown, a while ago. i had classes and he was home. later that day i accidentally found those sites from the address bar. i was so disappointed...becoz that was when i needed him the most and...... after taht day for a few day i checked the history in explorer and found out that he did it everytime i was away for long....well so long for everything together. i don't want to tell him to stop watching those. i gave him some hints that i know and am disappointed. i haven't talked to him directly abt it but i've tried talkin abt our relationship. it's like he doesn't want to talk abt it. i don't see a bright future together. so i kinda want to get out now. i don't see a point now coz it wont be happiness. so... i confess that i've had arguments with him for getting closer with other girls. anyways..thanx all for replies. as i told you earlier all our friends are common friends. so everything is like inside me . and i desperately needed to vomit it out so.. i'm trying to get the pieces of my life together now. take care all