Rahetta, I am sorry to hear about that. there is always misunderstanding in long distance relationship. you are alone here , no nepali frens , without driver liscense may be you feel home sick , nothing to do in weekend and start thinking about ur bf. ani maan ma aaneka kura haru auchha ... this is the problem. I know, that happens. As someone suggested here , make frens , make yourself busy try to find if any nepalese lives near by your area. If financially possible that go home this summer. By the way where you live / college ? DON"T EVEN THINK ABOUT SUCIDE. Saan Dai