racheeta at last u have reached this post?haha.. anyways i guess i too shud put down a few words..cos i wanna :oD hehe..and hopefully a short one(u must be quite drained out reading them all?) i hope i wont be repeating too much of wat those above me have already mentioned(wat they said sounds quite helpful doesnt it?well it does to me hehe) so suru garum hai ta?;oP haha after goin thru wat u wrote..sacchi timi lai ta ke ke ho ke ke bhairaheko raicha..tension ma jhan tension raicha..urghh :oS...about ur bf stuffs..well since he is ur bf u do look towards him(the 1st person u go to?) for comfort hoina?esp since u are currently experiencing quite a bleak period in ur life..thats wat relationships does/are for...hoina?to share joy and sorrows which makes both of them feel better?tara he too seems to be frustrated right now(im tryn to put myself in his shoes..and no his shoes doesnt smell!!yeah u can tell others ur bf feet aint smelly ;oP hehe) esp with his prolonged ongoin application so i guess he wont be the best person right now to expect lots of positivity? and i guess the long distance is takin its toll too and making it harder to communicate with each other?nothin beats communicating face to face hoina? in this situation it would have been best if u had some really good frens near/with u..tara the way u said it..seems like u dun have any close frens near there ..esp nepali frens..urghh..well its hard when we have no frens near us hoina?hopefully u do have some good frens(they dun have to be nepalese do they?or most prob ur homesick too and wanna see some familiar nepalese faces..hear some nepali voices speakin nepali?)cos a whiner like me should know how refreshin it feels after being able to complain about those things that were making me frustrated. well now ur in here..in sajha.com(dunno if we shud consider the person who introduced to here a fren or a foe ;oP haha ) hope lettn it out a bit here def helped u..and hopefully after seeing that ppl are puttn some of their time to hear u and give u some (esp positive sounding)feedbacks will make u feel a bit better. life ta complicated huncha hoina?tho we always try to make it simple and nice..simple ta kaha huney ho?and i guess there aint any absolute solutions to our life problems..tara for now like most mentioned here..u shud def try to find/feel some "positiveness"..dherai nasocha(haha most of my frens are always telln me this ..cant believe im telln it to someone else..ironic?;oP) i mean ur already thinkin of bihe etc and that he may not be the right guy for u etc..well i guess we do love to plan ahead..but i guess for me ma chai alik prefer to take one step at a time..u never know wat tomorrow will bring hoina? and i do believe it be pretty unfair to him if he loses u cos of long distance(and no im not supporting him cos im sexist hai ;oP..yo long distance bhanney chiz le dherai tension dincha ho :oS )im sure that will be his huge loss if that happens..shit i better try harder in summarising!!!haha yeah my suggestions would be..to try and be busy(tho im not sure how u can do that..diff ppl diff ways hoina?for me i end up goin around readin comics..or visitin my fav bookstore to ramdomly pick some books and browse them hehe..well aint really a reader ;oP)mingling and being around good frens would be nice..tara u seem to be the shy/quiet/introvert type?well if thats true..then since ur already here..u have ur anonymity(tho not 100% ;oP hehe) and well i guess there are quite some frenly sunny personalities here that u be able to interact with and smile a bit more than before :oD...well check this thread out..http://sajha.com/sajha/html/OpenThread.cfm?forum=2&ThreadID=45235
u find lots of frenly and ppl who has time to listen and type with u..im sure u will feel quite a home once u get there(plus most of them come at US time too so sounds like a perfect place for u?;oP hehe) anyways ma chai dherai bhak bhak garya..dun mind me :oD ..ani thanks in a way too..cos after typin here..i got to relieve some stress of mine hehe..typin bhakwash does it for me :oD..i feel much better now..thanks re kya :oD hehe... guess i better get out..but im sayn seriously i do empathize with u..well am tryn to..cos i feel i too have gone thru quite some similar experience as u..oh i still dun have a drivers licence(am contemplating of gettn one from nepal..u know pay the money and get it flown here ;oP hehe..yeah chor manche chor bahani :oS hehe..well a fren showed me this could be done few mths back..hmm do have another option and i better not go about talkn about it before i seem like im not a petty chor but a maha chor haha..but duh!even if i was to do such things i wont be driving unless i know i can really drive!i dun wanna cause no grievance to others due to my actions duh!;oP hehe ) oh i too changed my line sometime back and had to study smthing new again(3 yrs of studying and 4 yrs of experience totally gone!no use!hehe)..see very similiar?;oP hehe so i guess i can think a bit of wat kinda anxieties u must be goin thru to start again..but well once we make a decision we have to follow thru it hoina?tho yeah i still do think wat i would be doin now if i had stuck with my prev course hehe..and yeah do feel a tinge of regret now and then(esp since currently its not a bed of roses for me hehe)..but thats life?having some regrets?;oP ..yap miss that part of my life..but if things had been diff then..i wouldnt be the me right now?tho i wanna change lots of things about the current me..wat scares me is that i could have turned out worst!haha..so yeah better not ask for the stars?i mean even if i ask i shud expect not to get it ..ok i will still hope a tinee minee haha.. if not why even ask/aim hoina? seriously this part(lets not even mention some other parts :o| hehe) about being human..wanting more(a bit more) than wat we currently have..tauko tension esp when there are others who are having it a lots worse?:oS haha i better stop!!!anyways goodluck on ur stuffs..and hopefully the sun starts shinin on u sooner than later :oD...try to be positive hai(haha im telln myself this too..if not my frens will be laughn too much if they knew im actually sayn such things to someone else when they always "notice" that im the one whos too negative haha)... and if u have time..do type a bit more...interact with those nautankis ..they sure will make u feel a bit better(thats wat i feel anyways hehe)..ppl who are snorin pls wake up!;oP hehe and oh do give ur bf the benefit of the doubt and some time (esp when its long distance) tara who knows wat will happen tomorrow hoina?but tomorrow wat happens we will find out tomorrow?dherai peer gareyko kaam chaina?:oD tho of cos when peer comes..u just cant seem to get them out of ur mind :oS hehe..lookin at worst case scenario..if ur bf doesnt care about u/stops caring about u*touch wood* there are tonnes others who will and who does care about u?;o) hehe..i mean look at the above posts ..i feel some care in them hau(mine im just blabbering to release me own tensions wahahaha..well thats wat i ened up doin unintentionally i think ..hyaaa :oS hehe)..plus bf material haru pani katti cha hoina?there is always someone better hoina?but its us who has to make the choice if we wanna seek smthing better?or we are happy with wat we have?so ke ko tension hoina?;oP haha.. hmmm i always remember wat my teacher once told us..if we dunno we shud ask!if we dun ask how will the other person know that we dunno?hehe..u said u got no one to help u decide?well in the end we have to decide ourselves since it is for ourselves..but dun feel shy to ask around for opinions here or with ppl around u..and oh yeah its ok if u skip my opinions..it always end up a bit longer than wat it shud be..when will one of my dream come true that i can be succinct :oS hmm i think i shud open a thread askn for feedback on that..shudnt say it here..its ur thread hehe anyways better go finish the movie that i was watchn before i ended up here hehe..good luck and good day!:oD ps...rythm sis!!how u doin!!i know im an arsehole havent said hi etc for a while!tension ma ke :oS hehe..but well hope alls good there with u :oD..and ek din aucha hai esto lamo mail ;oP hehe..take care :oD *gone*