You have to try to analyze everything objectively. I am a girl, so I understand your pain when someone you love treats you this way. First, you have to put yourself in his shoes and give him the benefit of doubt. After all you love him, and you do not want to give up love without a fight. He must be stressed out and think that nothing goes his way. You have to be understanding, but don't be pushed around. Be supportive, but stand your ground. Second, suicide is never a solution. You are lonely right now, but you don't need to be friends only with Nepali people. Go out and find some friends, go and become involved in the International Student office at your school and I am sure you will find many other students from different parts of the world that share the same values as you do. Go to your school's website and see if there are any organizations or clubs at your school that match your interests. That's a great way to meet people. If you really feel depressed and need a friend or just a helpful ear, please email me at jacqueskallis@yahoo.com Regards, -sillygirl