i would like to thank sajha and everyone who have given their comments to help me out to deal with my situation. yes i know i have made a serious mistake i admit that but only the thing is i am not having peace of mind since i have cheated her. i have made my mind that i will be with my wife and next to my baby no matter what situation i go through and try to forget those 2 years as a bad dream. everyone who have made comments Thanks once again,i feel so much better now, am glad that SAJHA is there to express ur feeling if u cant say to anyone. felt like sajha as a family now. this was my first posting to sajha and its the BEST..... THANKS TO ALL.....