No one can suggest you on what to do. Since you already admitted your guilt...Now just prove it to yourself that you can in fact be faithful to your wife and your kids from here on out.... BTW, I find it ironic that you say you love/loved ur wife, and still had an extra-marital affair....Something does not make sense to me....Since you have already dumped ur so called girlfriend, its time for you to prove urself that you indeed love your wife and the kids.......If that does not help, try being the guy whose wife left him for another guy, and see how it feels...!