John ji, What I read from ur piece, I concluded that She was a old flame of yours, innit? So I would say that old flames could burn ur heart again!! I know how it works when you meet someone whom u had so much love before; but the question is what would you feel if your wife has done same thing as you have!! Would that not burn you down? If it would not have affected you and you would have understood it then it certainly is justified but if that would have made you miserable then you sure are as sinner as you can be! Sometimes after committing your love to someone for a lifetimes and seven more, you have to sacrifice your inner desire and if necessary kill them; Not easy, but its certainly essential because u can't afford to break the heart u care for do you?? Just an rant because u wanted me to be judgmental! I would not say you are pervert but rather say u were controlled by heart rather than head! :) P.S.- I would salivate on racy pics of actresses, specially Aish making me infidel innit?? :P