Amazing, I think you handled this ordeal quite gracefully. And I wouldn't be surprised if your Nakkali will someday count the way you handled this break-up as one of the nicest memories you gave to her. When it comes to relationship, there is always more to it than you can sense, make sense and talk about. Something will always remain unknown, a mystery and untold. Be mindful of that and don't ever try to get to the bottom of it whether out of mere curiosity or like for the purpose of giving an accounted closure to it. No, neither you can or must understand it fully, nor a closure is really needed. Closure is for weak people and for uncherishable relationships. It's not for you and this one. When you refused the "proposal" of "friendship", I don't know what you were thinking or how Nakkali and other friends thought about it. However, I kinda liked it. To me, a declaration of post-breakup friendship is, on the contrary of the idea of keeping the relationship unterminated, actually constructing an invisible wall, declaring a closure in a roundabout way. You don't take declare "friendship" to be friends. You just be. You refuse to "declare" friendship and yet you be. There's a real intention of being a friend. When you don't have intention or faith in it, then you "declare". That's how friendship is. So, I took your refusal as a refusal to "declaration" and not to your willingness or intention or desire to be a friend whenever and even if never she needed. It's truer that way. It's beautiful that way. I hope you agree with me. Have a beautiful agony, mate. Nepe