Man!!! amazing, i feel for you..having said that, it clearly shows that you're the one who caused this relationship to falter. when she was there, you did not care, you took her for granted...you think you own her or what, is she your property? :P and now when she decides to go away, you are shaken-- all of a sudden you want to tell her, i love you' ? that, to me, is: hypocrisy at its maximum... forgive me for being blunt, but you don't deserve her, let her go and find the right person :P LooTe