Gohtalo In my ears it sounds as if she is using you and as you say seducing you. If I were you then I would teel her, what ever you have told us here and say that you feel used and you do not wish to be part of it. And ask what her intensions are, if she does not reply frankly and act as if she is feeling sorry for you and play with your body and genitals and use sweet words, just stand up and leave, even though you don't want to (Because you may think that now something is going to happen, Pal nothing's gonna happen). Don't be in such a dilemma of maybe one tomorrow, things might change. you are running like those dogs pulling the slide and running for the bone held by a master who is riding the slide and holding the stick with the bone. The bone is so close they can almost touch it but can't have it. (If you know what I men) Divert your mind towards her being just your friend, and stop playing with her as you did. even when you sleep together, then put some cloths on, and if you feel uneasy sleeping with her, then don't. Sleep on the floor, or sofa or even go to the other room.