Whenever I go home, I feel like I cheated my country. I have already stopped cursing local politicians. The country sent me to a good school, good college, and I got those chances while thousands others were deprived of basic amenities such as schools and colleges. And now, when I have to give something back, I am running away. I know you have to live where you become happy. Do I fit here? No. Heck, when I topped my class one day and got the highest mark in probability class, I wanted to jump with joy, and I had no one to share that. I missed my highschool's friends at the time. We used to go to movie together, we used to go to eat samosa chat together, and now the only thing I am left with is memory. May be I am too weak. But I definitely don't want to live a life where you don't know your apartment's neighbors, or your neighbors. I want to have a life. And in the morning, I want to go to Pashupatinath, and things like that. My country is poor, but I love every bit of it. I hope that we will be richer one day. And for us to be richer, a lot of us has to go back. A lot of us has to use our knowledge there. And yes, a lot of us has to come here also. Insulation won't make us rich, but desertion won't either. Pireji, well composed. अब अमेरिकामा बस्नेनेपालीमा दुइटा मुख्य 'ट्रेट' देखिन्छ, 'यहाँ नोकर भयो अरुको, र नेपालमा मालिक हुन खोज्यो'। ठुलोठुलो युनिभर्सिटिको प्रोफेसर आदिको कुरा छोडौ उनीहरु त साच्चै बिद्वान हो, तर अरु झारेझुरे ठाउँमा काम गर्ने, वेबपेज बनाएर गुजारा गर्नेले पनी आफुलाई बिद्वान भएको जस्तो ठानेर नेपालका नेता, नेपालका सिभिल सोसाइटि सबैलाई गाली गरेको देख्दा ति आफै कति पटमुर्ख रहेछन भन्ने जस्तो लाग्छ। but could not appreciate above paragraph. -यहाँ आएर सिक्ने नै काम प्रतिको कदर र सम्मान हो।कुनै पनि काम झारझुरे हुदैन र यहाँ यो देशमा काम र काम गर्ने प्रति इज्जत गर्न सिकिन्छ,सबैमा केहि न केहि कम्जोरि हुन्छ र तपाइले पनि यो छ बर्षमा सबै कुरा त सिक्नु भो तर अरुको काम लाइ कदर गर्न चाहि अझै सिक्नु भएन जस्तो छ।तपाइका लेख र बिस्लेषणहरु राम्रा छन,त्यसैले नेपाल जानु अघि अलि अलि भएको मनको मैलो हटाएर जानु भए सुनमा सुगन्ध हुने थियो।अन्यथा नसोच्नु होला,मलाइ जे लाग्यो त्यो मात्रै व्यक्त गर्ने प्रयास गरेको हुँ।