Dear Sadbuttrue, I went through depression almost a year 6 years ago. I was in very bad shape. I didn't remember the things just said by other people. I didn't even remember the faces of the most people, I talked to. I failed some of the classes. I was too worried all the time about school, paying bills and living alone . I never mentioned my family and friends that I was going through drepssion. When I saw the person worse than me in my workplace. I decided to spend as much time as possible taking with my friends about my problems. After few months, I started feeling better and better. Thesedays, I'm happy most of the time. So, I think you need to stop worrying and share your problems with friends and family. It will definately help you.