Sabuttrue: I can understandyour problem to an extent, for I myself went through some kind of depression sometime ago. Somebody here said that the depression is state of mind; I fully agree with him/her. It is what you develop yourself, and now you are attached to it. Not to make what I want to say long, I personally would recommend you meditation. If you can use meditation wisely, it will be the best tool for your depression remedy. There are thousands of meditations. I recommend you Vipassana Meditation which is discovered ( or rediscovered) by Gautam Buddha. It is the purest form of meditation because you will be exploring only yourself and try to "purify" yourself (not any Mantras and asking the "higher authority" for salvation). It is taught literally all over the world. If you are in the US, there are several Vipassana Meditation centers. The website is http://dhamma.org,where you can find the nearest location from you, if you are ever interested. Also, it is free of cost. Good luck!