Dear Sadbuttrue, Common man. there's nothing wrong with being alone. I am alone too. I have 4 lovers but I am alone. This is life man. You can get opportunity to understand yourself when you are alone. Education is important but is that useful in life to apply. Sometimes yes but it is all about making money , isn't it? I am an ordinary human being. Please don't think a lot. Time will everything. I was also depressed a lot and confused about life. But again, there's nothing we can change about. Everything thing will be alright one day. I am not sure but one of the reason may be dope for your depression. Have you any thought in this regard? What about limiting the dose? Upto you man. Life is unfair. Take it easy man.