Hi, i really dont realise i will die, though intelectually i know i will die. Sometimes when i see people (some close one or .. ) dying i feel deeply insecured. if some one realise that he is going to die ( or more accuratly he is dying constantly), i think his way of living will radically change. we are taught from birth ( or even in the womb ) to follow the definite pattern,to accept all the irrational activities. when we were small child totally dependent in other to survive, we were moulded ,tourtured ,encouraged and formated innumerable times by the parentns , others family members and society . then we were compared to other people or other imaginary ideals, we were rewarded and punished many times for various reasons. So life became a struggle and another idea is made life is struglle since all struggling . We are constantly trying to become something or to avoide something all the time which means we are constantly denying our own nature , our own reality. Denying what is for what should be is the greatest conflict so is there struggle. Now i think if i can die of these pattern , ideas , conformities and so on then what remains is me , i dont know how it will be , but i am too afraid to loose what i know , what gathered ,is the death extension of the fear? since i am going to lose everything silently , with out complain,........