r4rupace, I know if you are desperately in love nothing goes into your mind... Anyway these posting and readings are just stopping the tears from your eyes for the time being.... creating some hope... r4rupace, I am exactly on your situation too but a step ahead that I am in US..and looking forward everything will be fine... I am just praying and praying... Just follow your heart with one thing in mind; never hurt others and yourself... I wish everything goes right on your side too.