Reminded me of the movie 'american beauty'. Love that movie. So, he did survive his mom, the failed driving test, drugs, and his own superficiality and turned out all right didn't he? And what wonderful insights we get into who he is now. All he needed was more luck and life. We all have self doubts. If u do then u dont need to. You are brilliant. All you need is an editor. I mean it. It is just a matter of time anyway. Just keep on writing. I know one day they will come looking for you. I know a thing or two and I know what I am talking about. You reinvent yourself all the time. And you are original.