hey life is not a fantasy.. it's the real fact so... go to the world of real life.. not the fantasy... I think cerine is right.. THere is a great difference in being a lover and a husband... I hope you got waht I meant to say... marriage is not a joke ..... take it seriously... I know you are in trouble but... all I can say is go as you have to go.. but not in the wrong direction which will lead you into trouble.. You know what when you marry the guy you love .. then you may find a great life for few years or may be you may have a happy ending life... who knows and who know that the person you haven't seen may be perfect to you... I have no idea about what's going on in ur life.. but all I suggest you is to speak ur mind.. and do the thing what won't make you feel regret in the near future.......... I don't know what is love ...........