hahaha....one more...oops... do one thing, leave both of them and come to me ;). if two good boys are after you at the same time, then you must be sth...hehe :P well, on a serious note, get along with your current bf and love him like anything. he deserves more. your ex, although your first love, did NOT keep in touch with you when you needed him. that shows his love is NOT true. i cannot judge any of them but this is what i am getting from what you have written, 1) your ex: chickened out when he was in trouble. 2) your current bf: stood by you when you were not all that ready and still loves you when you like him more than before...he must be sth...eh! choice is yours, lady! g'luck LooTe