I am very serious here. I am not faking or making anything. I have been in relationship with a nice nepali girl for long time. Its been more than couple of years. we were totally devoted and committed to each other. we both are educated and mature. we even talked with our parents about each other and they were also very happy for both of us as we are from same caste too. I will not write here how much i loved her and still do and what i did for her and everything. To make this story short, I just want to say this, i always gave her love, respected her, encouraged her, treated her as my best friend, my girl friend and my wife. we have spend time together as well, meaning cooking, grocery shopping, going out, washing dishes, and so many things. I believe that she also loved me a lot. she took teej ko brata for me, prayed for my success, asked me to meet her parents and asked me to talk about marriage and i did that as well. Everythign was so perfect in my life. My wonderful life suddenly changed few months ago when I learnt that my beloved girl is going out with some other guy. she cheated me. When i found out about this, i requested her to come back and asked her why she did this to me. she had no answer for that and she jsut tried to get away from me. since i had known her family and frined well, I called them to know if they know about anything related to this. Noone knew at that time. but irony is, she thought that i told everyone that she is cheating on me and dating some guy, but that was not the case. i never told anyone about that at that time. why would i do that when i treated her as my wife. This incident might have irritated her and she became closer with other guy and had physical relationship as well. I guess she did not think about anything at that time. she did not think about consequences. After I knew she is cheating on me, i could not control myself and because of this I screwed up my semester. I screwed up so badly that I could not get over with this. That thing completely changed my career and I am no where now. I am struggling just to save my status. I am not explaining everything here but i went through a lot because of this. I am totally depressed and thought about so many bad things. Many bad things started to came in my mind. I tried to forget her but could not do so. I still love her very much and I want her back. she knows this very well. we still talk to each other. Now she is saying that she just want to be friend with me and she does nt want to talk about love and marriage now. she does nt deny that she still love me and care about me. I dont know if she gonna come back to me or not. she has accepted her fault and she knows that she destroyed my life while whatever she is doing now is because of me. I did so much for her and she knows this. she sometime says, she broke the promise she has given to me and slept with someone else so she can not come back to me. But i told her that please forget about that and just come back to me. I told her that do not compare my love and respect and our long relationship with one sex. I also want to say you one thing that we too slept together as well. For me, I really love her and want her back but i dont know what she is thinking. I still dont understand that is it because of guiltyness that she is hesitating to come back because she cheated on me or she really wants to go away from me. if she wants to go away from me, why she is still talking to me? I told her that i can not be friend with her. I told her that I can either be her husband/bf or no one. i can forgive her if she come back to me and say sorry but if she tries to be just friend with me, then i will say she used me and threw in trash. I am expecting some comments from girls/women here. is it possible for a girl to come back after all this. I mean she had a good relationship with a nice guy and she cheated him even though he loved her so much and later he found out about this. she also slept with new guy. however the pld guy ( me) still wants her and love her as much as he used to. she knows that he loves her a lot. This is really killing me and i am really depressed. I want her back. I dont know how it gonna happen but i want this to happen. what should I do now?