well Loote - after seeing that video - I guess there is an angel who is looking after you. Life is still there after sorrow. I guess I have made up my mind to fight till I get what I want. "Where there is will there is a way". Every1 who were concerned - I had to rethink of my ownself and fight the devil inside me and I have become strong today. I will fight for my rights and win this battle. Life is short as is so why not have fun and enjoy while we can. Thanx to all for your concerns. Even if I don't write is Sajha I will be around doing good to my friends and family and help the others around the world. I am blessed to be born so let me live with helping other who I care most. Take care my loved ones.