We don't think u r commiting suicide.So people in sajha r taking it as a joke.But incase if u r really thinking of that,then I have no sympathy for u.No matter how much low we r in our life,we have to keep trying ,never let our hope to die coz we never know what happens next.Life is full of surprises and even if all surprises r not as good we have to struggle and have faith in us.Who knows!U might win a jackpot:-)