I think it is the product of depressed/pessimist mind, it's very bad to think like that by a Nepali. I hope Lalpari will not go ahead and post "I don't deserve my life as well". Come on, we can change every thing bad: our bad habit, our bad way of lives, our bad desires, our bad feeling, our bad politicians and beaurocrats, our bad armies (both NA and PLA), etc. and make our country very beautiful, very prosperous and very livable within 15-20 years. Be optimistic Lalpari about yourself and about the future of our country and its people.