vanisha feel pathetic sharing?duh!;oP hehe.. anyways guess that showed ur quite strong eh?;oP hehe..so yeah u got nothn to worry?i mean ..u be alright ;o)...hopefully!:o| hehe..duh!im pessimistic :o| dun mind me :o| dun we always think we have it all..(tho "all" to me or another might not mean the same fo u or some other)..and later..well..carryn on realisin..we dun have it all?..reality just has a way of kickn us everytime just when we think nothn can go wrong eh?hehe.. and before i end up blabbering(which im already doin eh?;oP hehe..i stopped typin for some mins there..to just think mind u!and not try not to type those things..duh!too much bhakwash :oS hehe) yes..i do STILL believe "everytin happens for good" if we still try to do good!!duh!it has already happened!!wat else can u do about it?time machine hasnt been invented yet!!yeah i wish it did exist too!!;oP hehe..(hmm this reminds me of a talk back those days with a fren about time machine where i believed and still believe goin back to time shud be possible as it has already happened and wat has been done means it existed once so does exist..so if that exist..if a time travel was feasible..shiit!i bettr type this smwhere else ..bhakwash mood ayo!wahahahah ;oP hehe)..... anyways..yeah dun we wonder smtimes how much can we spend out time wallowin in self pity?..not really pity but u know that melancholic feelns..cos smtimes when we feel it..we just dun really like to get out of it?...once we get the feeln of hurt..we just dun wanna come out of it..cos scares us to be happy again..more happy?and then be more hurt again?..hope scares us eh?;oP hehe..ok ok im really wafflin..dun mind me :oS..hehe but funny aint it?u went to places to look for more things to make u feel more..shiiit?;oP hehe..i mean lookn at ppl who seemed to have 'all'?subconciously went there?or who knows eh?hehe..and yeah even those ppl who seems to have 'all'..do they believe they do have it all?..im sure me guess is good as urs ..same guess?;oP hehe..and human greed..is there any limit to it?im talkn about mine when i say human hehe..like to associate meself as human ;oP hehe...if not its hard when there are so many things out there which tells us..right in our face.that we are just numbers?:oD..oh well truth hurts..and yet why do we try to convince ourselves it aint so bad as we think it is?hehe anyways if this might help..do check on ppl u know who dun have it 'all'..wats google for eh?;oP hehe..yeah..dunno about u..but it sure does make me stop whinin(stop for a moment wahahahaa...duh!a whiner will always be a whiner eh?:oS hehe..hope not!!!:o| hope for me ppl!;oP hehe)..cos it makes me realise tho im a number..me number is higher up there than to those millions out there..and i shud be doin smthin with this chance?intead of wastin me life whinin?:oS..but yeah realisin/thinkn is one thing..doin is another?:oS..oh well im tryn!!!:@... and after readin wat u wrote..im sure ur number is higher than mine!i hope its higher than mine!makes me feel better when somene is higher re kya ;oP hehe...duh!already seen millions below me!!!how much more!!:o| hehe.. plus u mentioned ur bf is there..grab this chance to whine more at him eh?wat are bf for?wahahahaa...he kill me!!if he heard this!;oP hehe..yeah dun go over the limit tho..;oP hehe...thinkin of the scenario..it suddenly feels nice to have a bf..u know..just sit down..put ur head on his shoulder..and rest..cos ur just so tired and hurt..and maybe his arms around u..holdin u?sheesh!im not gay!!!!!!why!!!:o| ;oP hehe..and yeah i shud try applyn for bollywood scripwriter positions..b grade?d grade?wahahahah ;oP anyways dun mind me here..just saw some similarity..and guess couldntstop thinkin...and had to let out somethings here..just blabbering and wastin database space as always :oD... yeah life goes on..with or without u..do u wanna go on with it?or be left behind?we have to make our down decsions eh?and live with it?but yeah readin that part that u chose to look for a another job..kinda brought some smile :oD...and is this all true or not?who knows..just like wat i wrote here..do i even care?who knows ;oP hehe.. and believe me..i dun know meself if i really belive in 'everythin happens for the good'..cos feeln good is smthin that comes too easily to me!:@ sooner than later!:@..and yet all i see is so much shiiiit around!!!everywhere!!!..yeah so easy to notice shiit..that we just forget the good things that might be just infront of us?..beside us?in us?..with us?...funny aint it..we have to lose to realise its 'value'!!..and yeah! (telln to me frens now and even meself) gawd!!im tryn to grow up!!!u dunno how much i try to grow up!!follow the crowd u all say!majority rules?...but its so hard!!!esp when freakn hell!!how!!how!!someone tell me how!!steps pls!!!!...convince me!!!!!!i want to!!!believe me!!!!i wanna grow up!!as they say..go with the flow!if u cant swim against it!!im dunno why i am this way!..but i wish i was like how u all wished i was!!!.. oops...talkn about meself :oS..hehe anyways good luck there..good luck to me too ;oP hehe.. and yeah sympathy..i think i have none for u :oD..hope so nothin i wrote up there reeked sympathy..:oD...cos im scared..the day i start sympathising anyone..it means i do sympathise meself..and yeah im who i am..screwed i might be ;oP hehe..but the day i sympathise meself..just say..im too stubborn to ever sympathise meself ;oP hehe.. i dun really believe that anyone can understand another that much..as much as one shud and wanna be understood..(wet blanket aint i?;oP hehe)...but yeah seeing ppl do try does make me smile ;o)..(got good frens ni!remember them?;oP hehe...its hard to realise they are around when ur in a melancholic mood eh?hehe..yeah that bloody mood!:@..but then again if that mood wasnt there..wat will life be?;oP hehe) so everythin happens for good?;oP hehe..wahahaha ok i better post and freakn get out!:@...cos im already thinkn shud i post or not for a while...wahahaha..dun wanna freak more ppl u see ;oP hehe..oh well u posted urs..might as well post mine ;oP... anyways good luck again! to everyone hai :oD..saab lai ni..;o).. kaam na kaaj..and to think i shud be lyin down today!cos im sick!wahahahah ;oP...so yeah anyone who was gonna tell me to do smthin productive!!sick manchey lai pani kaam garney bhanney!:@ laaj chaina!:@ ;oP hehe...and yeah before a doc comes to say i shudnt even type!!:@..ok ok im goin!:@ sleep well ppl!feeln sick is shiiit!!!:@ hehe..but do we ever listen?even to ourselves?;oP hehe.. good day!:oD *gone*