I thought I had it all……….. I feel so pathetic writing this blog right now. Let me tell you my story. I was one of the very few people who had a job lined up before graduation in my college. Man, had I ever got so many appraisals in my life? The company not only offered me generous compensation but was also willing to sponsor my H1B visa. I felt like I was living my dream life. I called my parents at 3:00 am in the morning to give them the good news. I could not wait until morning. I am a spendthrift by nature. After I got the offer, I swiped my credit card even more often than ever thinking that I will pay it off once I get my handsome salary. My professors were so proud of me…I could just see it in their eyes…my juniors in college looked upto me and asked me how I did it. I was flying in the air. But wait a minute! Guess what happened last week? The company called me (I was on a vacation with my boyfriend) and took the damn offer back…wanna know why? Coz the damn quota for H1B has been filled for this year. I was numb for a moment when I got this news. That was one of the worst moments of my life. I don’t know how to feel. Apparently, I was just a number for them in their payroll. I was crushed. It took me a while to get over it. I so much wished this to be a bad dream. I could not believe this for a day or two. I was spending money like crazy buying business attire…matching shoes, matching accessories….dreaming about how I want my new apartment look like. Who knew pain was so close to pleasure? I didn’t realize I just had the offer not the contract. Some suggested me to take the company to the court. But where are my proofs? Spending money on high-heels? Eating at fine dining? Joy, I could hear in my parent’s voice? Pride, I can see in my professors eyes? I had two options. To swipe my credit card to hire a lawyer or to start looking for a new job. I chose the latter one. I was browsing Hi5 and Facebook earlier,….felt frustrated. Everyone seems to have it all. I feel like a loser having said that. Seriously, girls in the Hi appear to be slimmer, more successful (working for Fortune 500) and they all seem like they are having so much fun in the pictures. Am I envious? What do you think? They really looked like they have it all….but do they? I have to rise again. I don’t want people to look at me with sympathy. Enough is enough. I was a great believer of “everything happens for good”….now it sounds so empty. I tell myself this 1000 times a day. I don’t know if I really believe it or I am just trying to convince myself. Anyways…life still goes on……We all have it all once in a while and at times we all going through the bumps. Some face hard bumps some don’t. Amen!!