As you said you are very stubborn girl And you do stuff for your own sake. Then be it. I cannot teach you .BUT you can teach yourself .Did you take even interest as how i said in last message .Can i ask you why didn't you explore what you have first .You don't even know what you have with you right now and you move to look for other things.If you are not satisfied with what you have then it makes sense. I am not disappointed that you don't have boy friend or you are not doing for someone . Why should i be?I don't really care. I was trying to tell you because you critised your faith. here one more for you: "Grass is always greener on the other side of the fence" "little knowledege is dangerous thing"