Just getting too bored!!! Maybe I can bore everyone too....:) ************************************************************ When you try your best but you don't succeed When you get what you want but not what you need When you feel so tired but you can't sleep.... Coldplay playing on the background, I find myself in same prologue as the Chris Martin... The mobile rings!!!...See my fren ringing in!!! "What are you upto dude??" "Nothing much...Same old things...What else??" "Want to have a drink tonite??" I am not a party animal to be honest!!! Like my own serenity...Movies being my fav time pass... "Uh huh...Ok!!"I am too bored anyways.... "See u at 10 at Rock bar then!!!" Ah same bar again...But I like it there anyways... Back to the book again..I find myself mingling with numbers and equations...Numbers jumble again in my heads turning it upside down!!! I watch the book closed and see instead a terror rising through it!!! Maybe exam fever was getting me now...But I try to remain calm!!! ....Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones ... Coldplay sings along!!! Maybe Some light will guide me anyways!!! I sign into my messenger and look for someone to be online from back home...I miss home so much..maybe the food, maybe the place, maybe the homely feeling!!! Ah there is the one fren of mine..old fren popping up in my messanger after so long!!! "Ohoo!! Darshan hajur...Hajurko darshan nai paauna garho!!!" The satire begins!! "K garnu hajur haaru befursti bhayechhi ma matra katti pachhi lagnu ni..:p???" I fire back!! Had been months since I had written to anyone...Nothing to write anyways So I stopped writing..Even I call home so less these days!!! "K chha yaar tero suna na!!" he asks "Nothing new yaar.. exams are coming, so little bg thats all!!" But I have time to party!! "tero ni!!" I inquire... "am finishing masters this semester..then struggle again yaar.. U know how hard is here to find any job!!" He had left his job to continue study... I just get scared even to think of my future now... Coldplay sings on... What if there was no light Nothing wrong, nothing right What if there was no time And no reason, or rhyme What if you should decide .... No rhyme of life to sing along..and no light to show the path.....I just wonder around again... "How is situation now yaar??" I want to know about the country!!! " K bhanne yaar ustai ho, 1 chor gaayo 205 chhor aayo..aabo jhan k hune ho tha chhaina yaar!!! But I hope it will be all good, I just have hope!!!" Yeah Hope was all we have!! "Oiie ma aahile janchhu hai..Mero thesis ko kaam tanna chha yaar!!! Mail sail patha na!!" everybody seems bg anyways!!! "dekhyo ko badhi bg raichha..:P! " I try to pull his leg... "najiska na yaar...Mail patha baaru!!" He seems to feel guilty...I feel it too!! feel guilty to not keep in touch..But yeah busy as bee, or at least trying to look so!!! But yeah everybody were out of touch...I just wonder those days... band of frens sitting on those bars beside the football field remain a memoir for now... Memory reflashed!!! "Oyee tero k garne bichaar chha yaar yehan sakechhi!!!" " Khoi yaar maybe jagir khojchhu!!!" " Malai ta tension bhaisakyo yaar..senior dai haaru halleko dekhera!!!.." " Khoi yaar..pahila pass nai garaun na!!!" " yeuta kura bhan na, yeah sakechhi maybe we will be out of touch hola hai!!" " hya, saathi ni chhutchha ra!!" Someone retaliates... " Khoi tara pacchi office bhayechhi thaha hunchha...aani barsau paachi bhet hunchha ekchhoti aani visiting card adan pradan hunchha...ghaar pugechhi chhora lai diyinchha tyo visiting card aani chhora le k bhanchha tha chah tmiharulai...."25!!!!"..." 'hahahahaha' everybody laughs out... Seems those dialogue are taking its shape slowly... "Bye hai, mail gardai gaar!!!" The message window seems to be blinking again...and the e-mails remain again a distant dream... Life was turning a rugged path...have to be more tugged to walk along the line!!!...Struggle everywhere and struggle was on fiercely back home too....Some struggling for a mere bread...Some struggling for people around them...Some for power...Some for beleifs!!! The struggle was on...The rhododendron revolution as they call it had ended...But the struggle was still on...Power shows everywhere and people just dazed and confused...People...WHO CARED FOR THEM ANYWAYS!!! Too much to think about country for now...I try to find some news back home!!!...Sad news again...Extortions!!! Accidents and Robbery!!! Distorted I try to search through the forum!!! Ah!!! She is hot ...No She is not...What a discussion!!! and It gets personal again!!! She blinked into the messanger now!!! Haven't seen her in ages...Missed her sometimes but missing seems to be part of life now!!!!! Coldplay sings along... If you ever feel like something's missing Things you'll never understand Little white shadows Sparkle and glisten Part of a system again!!!.... Maybe I have become part of system of MISSING!!!.... "Hey" I try to start conversation. "Hey!!!" "How are you??" I want to know more than that... "Fine and going...You??" She asks!!! "Yeah going on... how is life??" I try different angle... " Same as before!!!" end of long conversation.... The message board doesn't seems to blink for long time...Maybe I couldn't ask more...She couldn't talk more!!! I just stare through..Memories iterate again!!! "What does frenship means??" She had once asked... "Understanding without speaking...being there without being asked for!!!" I was too much ideological... But we were there always for each other...through thick and thin!!!..Frenship at its best...Then things turned another way... Path divided!!! Life continued...Mails failed to written and Known become unknowns... Maybe We will meet again someday somewhere!!! "Hey got to go hai...See u later!!!" She had something important...or maybe not!!! Before I could say bye, she appeared offline!!! So much of missing anyways!!! I look at watch now...9 already!!! have to grab something to eat now...and yeah have to go meet the fren!!!...Maybe I will celebrate new democracy back home!! ************************************************************