i guess this indisguise dude is right. i know you are right buddy. i know i am not acting normal. i will try my friend. let me meet her first in few days and ask her why did she do this to me? i want to see how she will look at me? will she have a courage to look at me or not? i know i need to move on, and i will. right now i am totally heartbroken , loser. i am a strong guy, went through many things in life, but this is the toughest one. i guess i am not so strong in this love/emotion stuff. she is not losing anything, she had two options, so i am the only who is suffering. i can make her life full of guilt, and i know i will lose respect from her doing this, i have not done that yet though.