I was avoiding this thread even though was started by me. I wasn't thinking to response on this either. Now, it is 3.26 AM HK time. I just brewed by green chinese tea woke up after 4 hours of sleep. I was passing through it reading each careful response. I certainly realised that i have pulled connection strings of lot a gals and guys here. I use to think i am different than others. Thanks for everyone crisis that they have been through and still passing by. I know as i say" sabai galti mero ho, aba je garchu maile nai garchu". I will certainly not burn my house nor her heart. I am not going to kill myself either coz i am survived sperms out of the millions who made it till my mum ovary. I will certainly go with the flow of time being karmaYogi. I happen to love this word and cant get enough of it. I have admit of being karmayogi but has not accepted yet. There is certainly a distance between amdittance and acceptance. Reading through lot of comments, I may have activate my denial mechanism. I certainly is aware of that fact. Let me get into the relationship chapter. What kind of relation is MM looking for? trust, sucessful, honesty,responsiblity, understanind, sharing, guidance, respect, supprot, love and affection, discipline, independency, self space, listening and proper communication. well, i am sure we all have heard the story" neauri mari paachuto' 'नेउरी मारी पाछुतो' so where there is decision. There must either be reacion or action. Shouldnot i be taking reaction( wait,think and act) rather than jumping into action. That action will take me just around the clock as visicous circle. This is still why i go through same problem in all my realtionship. I need to break this visicous circle facing the impact being Karmagyogi. So lonely gal pls help me with my " all W factors, which, why, when, who , what?" aba being in evalution i should be stoped on my my assumption, assmue assume= ass+U+Me It is all created in your brain, it is non other than imagination brain child.Actually who is being ass here its u and me. anyways, mero yeti lamo typing garne patience and tolerance build up bhaye cha...so keep working on it. ani kalanki bro aba ke garne maanche ho, तिम्रो तस्वीर ले चित्त बुजौदा ma survive hunu bhayena...killing me softly is always my problem, actually it is problem for all. ek kai choti ta marne himat aaudaina baru rakshi khayera drugs khayera jindagi dekhi deeka bhayera marchu bhanchan....so bro aba marne sarne haina...smile and accept the reality..aba herdai jau next 60 yrs ma yo MM le ke garcha..timi haru herdai jau uhi moneyminded recovering addict (wanna change the world, change yourself)