Hey Burden: If it's just your creativity, it's terrific. However, if it is an expression of your own soul or state of mind, it's really devastating. Listen one thing, "BEAUTY IS IN THE EYES OF BEHOLDER." May be you look ugly to some people, there are people in this world who would definitely find you the most beautiful person in the world. May be you didn't come across with that person or those people yet. That doesn't mean that no one likes you, or you're ugly. Every dog has a day, buddy. Wait for that day, god has something for everyone. Always try to see good aspects of yourself and try to use those for your well being. This world is full of nonsense people and you are talking about ending your life based on the judgment of those nonsense craps. Wait a minute, take your time to think about it. Wait for your day budyy, you will certainly have your day. Good luck, Cheers!!