Birbhadra, Thaha Panyen and Khaobaadi, etc As I have said in a previous post God has given everyone a talent or ability that they are really good at. Sometimes mulitple talents. Not everyone who is Christian has a talent for teaching or even understanding scripture. Sometimes we have to be trained into our talents. Most Christians don't have the talent for teaching nor understanding scripture otherwise we wouldn't need preachers and pastors to lead us in church and even among those who do have a talent for it there is many times disagreement for what scripture means. However, for you I would say you are clinging too tight to your own belief system. I'm not saying convert to Chrisitianity or anything for that matter. This world needs people like you because you remind us that even God wants us to question our beliefs otherwise why would he tell us to pursue wisdom.