Let me add something here. It was like a year ago when we were having super bowl final. I gave her number and she called me right away. Next day she called me again and told me she gonna visit me on Friday. I was excited but I was busy that Friday. I called her to tell her that I can't meet her. She didn't pick up her phone. I called her 4 or 5 times but still she didn't answer. I was pissed and I left her message at 2 am in the morning. She called me the next day and she was mad. She was mad not even for a minute and after that she was calm just like a baby. After that phone call we became phone friends. I don't like to bother people so I used to call her once in a week. My life was back in gambling and drinking again. I used to call her, now she started calling me every Sunday. She didn't call me for 2 weeks coz' her boyfriend visited her. I was like WTF? I had no feeling for her so it would not matter if she's got boy friend or not. I was kinda pissed but didn't call her back too. I was just looking for friends. After one Saturday's hangover, I woke up at 1 Pm on Sunday. She called me and she was saying that she's gonna visit downtown. I was bored too and I told her that I am gonna visit downtown and we both could meet their in the Nepali resturant for dinner. At first she was denying but I forced her to come their. I was already in the resturant waiting for her. I was alone so I started drinking beer and snacks. She called me after an hour and she was telling me that she was lost. I gave my phone to the manager of that resturant so that he could guide her. She showed up late. She came and sat by me. I could easily read the frustration and sadness in her face. We ordered MOMO and sukuti. She started telling me her love story. It was kinda sad but not that bad. I had to go so I called the cab, paid the bill and left just like that. We were talking on the phone till I get back to my town. Again, same shit started. Our friendship was limited on the phone. I supported her love and said I could help her if she really wants to get her love. I was living my life and she was living her own. We both decided to meet again at the Nepali get togather. I was getting ready for that day. I started getting ready coz' I like to have fun. I got the hair cut, pressed my white shirt, polished my boot and took enough money from ATM. I was waiting for her outside the event center. As usual, she showed up late. She could not recognize me at first coz' I was looking different. I knew what she wanted; happiness, fun and company. We sat togather whole time, talked a lot and danced togather. I was f-cking drunk. I had to go back to my place but I decided to stay in motel or hotel. She told me that she could give me ride. Once again I was like WTF? because I was drunk, I live far from downtown, sometimes people don't like my job and we didn't even know the right way to get back. Her phone was ringing all the time coz' her boy friend and mother were mad with her. I was impressed. She touched my heart and I felt something for her. Next day she promised me to meet again at downtown. Here you go, guess what? She didn't show up again. Once she said that she will come and visit me on Friday. I was waiting outside but she retuned back just 5 miles far from my place. It was hard for me to know what is going on. We decided to meet on another Nepali get togather. We met their. I saw something for me in her face but it was hard for me to understand coz' she had boy friend. You know me guys, I was drunk again and guess what, she gave me ride again. That week was tough for us. Rumors were going around about us in Nepali community (it happens all the time in our community). She called me and said she's never gonna meet me again. I didn't say anything. I just said OK. I deleted her number and everything that I had in my computer and phone. I was at my work and I got her email. She said she wants to give money back which I paid for the entrance of party. I replied her that she don't have to pay me back. Again, the next day she wrote me that she can't live without good freinds so wants to meet me. I still remember that was Saturday, she came to my town. We went to Mall first but didn't buy anything. We went to Thai resturant. I was in doubt. I started loving her but she had boy friend. It was hard for me. She wanted to leave that state after few months and I had to do something. I was in doubt, confusion and I don't know what was happenning to me. I started drinking. I wanted to tell her that I love her but I had no guts. I told her that I got something to say. She was asking me all the time but it was hard for me. Sometimes I was like, "I ain't telln' her", and sometimes "I gotta tell her". We went to Local Casino after that. That Casino is familiar to me and everybody knows me. I remember I drank 8 shots of straight Jack and 4 glasses of Budlight but I still could not tell her. We were at the gate of my place. I was leaving but I came back to her car and sat for while and told her that she's gonna slap me. I was scared but I hold by balls and told her "I love you. I would like to marry you.".....I was shaking. I thought she would be gone but she was their without sayn' anything. I was suprised and she told me that I am too drunk and she would talk to me later. I went to my room and I told her that I would call her but I passed out..................