It has been a while since I last visited Sajha and its section, Kurakani. It is not like that I have forgotten our beloved cyber-sansar or its humdrum contents, but I am feeling a bit intruder entering www.sajha.com. I agree with the claim of "None Free" in this universe except the parental love: however, I doubt the caressing hugs of lovers these days, especially when there is a constant reminder of commitment, loyalty and responsibility shadowing the very essence of relationships. Today is a Christmas Day, a pious day for Christians, the biggest religious group in the United States of America. Neither am I Christian nor do I ever celebrate Christmas. Friends invited me for a Christmas Eve Party yesterday and also a Christmas get together today. Being only a non-Christian staff, I feel like an outsider in this type of festive mood. I already had an enough on their so called Harvest-Festival, Thanksgiving, and I don’t want to give another feeling of being outsider. I would rather compromise a staff get-together on a Friday Happy Hour. Perhaps, I am one of those people who enjoy ecstasy but not happiness. I am sure everybody was having a great expectation of "White Christmas", but they all had to settle for a "Wet Christmas" this year. After all there were only fifteen percentage chances of getting White Christmas this year here where I am right now. I don't understand since when these westerners started becoming so superstitious than easterners and not to mention since when they started becoming so family oriented and devout believers. I am diverting away from my topic. Indeed I am. I am not surprised! Confession- how serene word it is- confession! I did not murder anyone and neither do I have any intention or zeal to do so, I try my best to be who I am and I try my very best not to hurt someone, especially unintentionally, I try my best to be honest, and as much as I can: however, I paid loads of price for being so honest in my life so far. Despite all these deeds, today I feel like an intruder trespassing Sajha with the funny feeling of ecstasy but not happiness. Confessing!!! HD