Koirala jwu, Keep up the hard work with your search - you may well find your soul mate here in Sajha for all the reasons in the world. You'll never know. Hope is perhaps one thing one must cling to - it's like a dart board. You keep firing away your level best at the board with all the acquired skills, trying and trying until you hit the bull's eye. Ping - there you go. There's got to be light in the end of a tunnel they say! Good luck.