Finally, I got answers for my questions for ages..........i use to smoke weed to get more answers of my question on spritiuality but ultimately it brings more question than answer.............conclusion is whole universe and life is nothing but zero........more u try to find it ends it zero which in science called infinity. I always wanted to get nirvana and thought that i can achieve it by going to jungle and doing tapasya...............tara.., to be honest i got it recently, dont ask me questions how i got it , dont ask me how does it feel, dont ask me how is it? Can u answere how do u explain heat, cold or pain........max u can say is it is like burning in hand but how is burning then u will say it is painful.....but how is painful......then it is always going around one circle that is nothing but infinity. since, i was kid i always use to wonder about relegion about god , i was rebel for my family like taking against discrimation done by brahamans and god nature .........like prostitution by god and raslila of krishna.......which never made sense...then i started to study about the relegion but there was always so many question..... Ultimately, i realised that the guy who get mukti long time in nepal was Maha kabi laxi parsad devkota........who realised the utlimate reality...and composed poem kun mandir maa jaanchau yatri.......that was the sign of his mukti.....and i am happy today to meet ppl who has acheived mukti........in hk some of them are christian and muslim and for them relegion dont make sense as well.............but today i am really happy and still poor by pocket but my heart has so much gay that cant explain.... To get mukti you dont have to go to forest or isolate your self ............you can get mukti while working in home or office...or sleeping... Mukti mukti.....is nothing but to get out of the bond of life circle....it is not also being immortal......but just able to analysis yourself out of the box which we all keep ourself with the pride, ego and love......these things are not discardable as we live in world of maya....where u cant be totally in spritiual world...but u can control them...that is called bodisatota....now i understand buddha very well....., If anyone has been through my phase pls jot some words here... if the 50 percent of the ppl in world gets mukti and understands then honestly this world will be shangrila and paradise....you dont have to go to himalayas , nor u have to research of atlandis....it is all mind of game.....God is mind of game...it acts on how u play.. My deepest thanks to vishuavotar ji, who opened my eyes withsome of the thread and also to the tantra concept speeched by osho....but i am not follower of anyone though, they are my mates...coz they have received mukti and we are rebel for maya world coz we believe in making world better place to live