i think its cool letting out your diary, but I am not sure that most nepalese here at sajha have matured enough to even to dare to write the word 's-e-x' out here..but anyways kudos for your guts.. I think everyone starts out the way you did..you were just a teen and so did most of us..so don't feel bad for what happened or gulty that you didn't let your parents know...even in a million years parents do not understand that only because they are your parents...if you were like 18 or 21 above then nobody would notice that either. The first time i kissed a guy, proly at 13...i thought i will be pregnant and i ended up in the hospital for i tried to kill myself for kissing a guy..Now when i look back i'm like..hello ...what was i thinking??hahahhaha I know lot of teens go through that stage totally confused..when the body is saying one thing and the head is saying another and we have constant battle between them two. All i can is if it works out well with your bf..its all good..its natural and don't feel guilty..i'm sure your better experienced friends will help you in detail...about right and wrong...don't do it just cuz someone else is doing it..and make sure you know what you are doing...protection, your health, your social consequences...blah blah.. But never let yourself down..you haven't done anything that most people do anyways. Enjoy life ;p