I hear you, Manish. I think it is a great misfortune to be a soldier in a country like Nepal. Even when they beg to have a respectful death, these soldiers are, instead, burnt alive with hands and limbs tied, shot after mutilating their genitals or cutting their tongue or severing their limbs. It goes to as extreme as it can get. These soldiers not only do not have a respectful death, but they also become nonentity once they die. The king, for whom they are fighting for, is more than ready to condone the killings of few people in other countries, while does not even say a word--publicly--when civilians and soldiers far greater in number, die at home. If the King does not respect these soldiers, for what they have done to him--at a personal level--and to this nation, PUBLICLY, it is not worth risking their lives. On the other hand, we have general public who also do not show any respect to these soldiers for what they have done to protect us. All we see is their negative aspects. Yes, they are humans too, and they make mistakes. We should punish them when they do wrong, but we should also praise them when they risk their lives for us--for you and me. We have these media, whose only job is to report how RNA has violated human rights. It is good to let people know about atrocities committed by RNA--to keep them in check, but it would be even better if some national media could report on even personal stories of some brave soldiers. We rarely hear anything good about these soldiers while all we hear is how "intense" the next struggle is going to be. They just become statistics to be represented in some colorful charts. No family can receive the mutilated dead body of their loved ones without extreme agony. No logic or reason can convince those families how their loved one has become a martyr. At a state of an emotional "comma," you don't see any reason; you just ask, why me? It takes a long time to heal these wounds, or possibly may never heal. I will always miss you, my brother.