Just what i needed for a sunday morn cup of coffee..where the hell are you from whateva... nice knowing you..but i think i skipped few lines if you don't mind..and i'm gonna add some more to this nonsense..just love it... dammit i thought i will become Zeenat Aman when i grow up ...but even though i can fit into my mom's shoes i still look a chompy doll..i have to goto work..where they pay me 1% of what i should be making..the business makes 150,000 a week..fuccc....... ooops..bihana bihanaa..mero gay roommate..even he starts talking that he's gay..had his alarm switched on at 7 a.m. and i slept at 2.30 ..this is torture...i get to see that the movie on TV is 'loser" switch couple of more channels to find E.T., The last time i watched it was at my kanchubua's house when i was two..damn ican rememebr everything from my past, my goldfish and my frogs...and if i start attaching and comparing them with present ..it's insane..you can imagine how much i think ..i think and i think and i think and i think and i think last night i was sooooooo looney to post that love topic..but then how come dc-girl found out it's Ro....i'm thinking about..Day before yesterday i called to find out he's making out with ellen..his 101st gf..says he's too busy straigteting his life...there's nothing in this world that i'd wanted and never got..i think i scared the shiit out of him..hahaa..all hindi movie's effects .. I wonder is there anything in life for me left to experience..maybe that trekk to MArs..hoping to be there..i gotto go to a temple today..cuase not only have i made my roomate gay..but a religiopus freak...i wonder why even people listen to half the things i tell them..but i'm glad i am a GURU of some sorts...my dads gonna put me into a skewer and bbq me if he finds out that i'm writing this.. I am nobody but a MUSE...i think i ought to start my own amusement park on that notte..i have to attend a wedding....and i'm putting my best foot forward tonite..you never know who i'm gonna end up than the loser bf..from school that i've made a perfect chauuffer......I totallydespise him...but u know a healthy mind needs a healthy body and he's all part of the package..just feels good to have someome lay down his coat as i walk past the mud..plus he's very tolerant with the way mishmash the male ego...afterall i'm my own girl.. if i don't drink i cannot hang out with normal girls..girls give me rashes,...especially from that new york incident where tania never lost 'Touch" of me..is it only me or other people that attract gay, lesbians, hetero, starights inthe same line...the last time i was discoing, i had three underage kids and couple of black women fighting to see my t...err..and girls .. Sometimes i wish i was muslim woman then burkha would save my life but then..i'm so good at playing James Bond Fundas that i cannot get past my bikinis... I love my life dearly, however its turned out, its turned out the way that i always imagined..graudated from fake frens and lovers..school college work..just ready to take off to mars...i still don't look like Zeeenat Aman...damn..i'm gonna put on that barely there cream and saffron colored saree and nothing underneath..maybe that'll make me zeenat aman... now i'm gonna get my real coffee take a shower and lie to thaat dj i met the last party at mantra that i have something else to do so make plans to cheat my bf inthe middle of the week..call banu dijju's sis tomooorw and follow up my phone interview tomorrow..afterall without networking even america doesn't work...this is my 7th job in two years..its worse than my bfs...just lucky to have them though..then i have my mind set on phd..and then some active initation in erdicating poverty in nepal... you know just witing to be Zeenat Aman someday..it'l all resolve..oh i have to get back my dough from that creep of an auntie. my friend owes me almost 800 now...and then i have to get back a car i dumped in alabama...its so much easier to give tha get. my mom's gonna kill me for investing on worthless pursuits.....and i think with the parties following this week i'll be broke..broke and me...it was something impossible sometimes ago..just like failing in exam or havings aids..you never imagine that you;ll have to live with debts..unnneccessary ones..adding to that i reaally need to pimp my crib asap...i cannot tolerate to live in the same nest for two months... i tell you i'm not Zeenat aman lookalike...but you can call me an Anti social Communist hot and sexxy Parveen babi..going to get that cup of coffee..a shower, temple, work, wedding.. and then flirt all nite.. ciao