My point is, I don't want to go back to the history and base my conviction on it. I want to look at the situation now and for tomorrow. Someone said few years back to me- Nationalism is only 2-3 generations deep. Look at the Americans. If not your kids, your grand-kids will be Americans in heart and soul. If they have to fight against the Nepalese, they will. So me being a Nepali now, want democracy and rule of law in Nepal. I don't want some despot ruling under his thumb.