damn you guilt ridden i'm wrting this as an answer: To all the boys that i loved before: love is such a crazy notion, and when we clicked we did. If i wasn't in love with you i wudn't have spent even a moment with you which obviously i did. The fact that i had never noticed your fake accent, the one twisted hair in your temple, your height being smaller to mine or that you weren't really the nicest person to be with meant that i was totally blindly in love.. So much wanted to be in love than be inlove with you. Don't regret the conversations we had, lies they were not but as i felt free i tended to analyse more and in the line probably twisted your head ..but then the person that i was in 8th grade was not the same in my 9th. so i had to leave you.the person in 9 grew on to become a 10th grader.. each year i cudn't relate to the same setting, talks and even persons but you never went with my flow so each time i had to let you go..all you wanted me to get stuck in the same hole which i didn't want to end up in.. then not only the iq factor, but distance, situations, experiences ...basically thought processes got in the way of the heart...basically you were one of the courses that i just had to take to graduate to next level... i wudn't wanna change the things..i have no regrets..maybe i didn't appreciate love then maybe it was irrelevant..maybe there were real bigger issues...but we are and were just simple people..and people make mistake..just doesn't seem a point to go back and fix each and every one of them..you gotto move on....you can't always have the things you want..thats the basic theory of love and life and as far love is concerned i'm definite that like me you will find in some other form and hopefully better ones.. hush