Thanks for all of ur responses. It really gave me some positive vibes. Honestly I felt that some of you have helped me have a firmer, more determined mindset.But i will have to clear some misconceptions. Q.Why show property and income and all that shit? Ans: Show me another way. Would they give me VISA on my academics? I had an excellent SAT and TOEFL score but that was not even the first thing the morons looked at. It was the bank statement. And i understand why...coz my parents have to support me when I am here. Which is not the case...From the people i see around me I know that the basis for judgments are not academics...no freakin way....is it looks?? I wonder..!! I am NOT BITCHIN' about anything...My point in starting this thread was not to stir a revolution...I know all of us are and were like this and will always be so.I havn't been here too long but long enough to see what?s going on. Hushpuppy: Quoting u "what are you worried about? Not having accomplished anything... No I am not worried about accomplishments....because where does accomplishment terminate?.it will never stop. If there is a devil on this earth its money. Root of all evil. I have come face to face with my weaknesses and discovered my strengths like yourself. I have been penniless a lot of time, have lived without food ....but you know it taught me what a penny is worth?I am gellin not yellin??thank you?I really value ur response. PearlJam : I ain bitchin? Eddie Veddar worked in a Gas Station too?He did? I just feel like a nothing man?trying to be a better man?just doing the evolution bro? Veer: Daju dhanyabad?I do realize the bitterness of reality?and I am swallowing it everyday?Option #2 is surly my selection?.I am not saying that I feel bad that my parents can?t support me of thicken my wallet?Ghusya bau ko chora haru le k garcha malai kei chaso chaina. I was not raised like that. I come from a modest Nepali family. I do not intend to sound sahityik but? fortitude and endurance I learned it watching my mother Revival: Bro kasam ho life ta routine nai bhai sakyo?I am really into music but I can?t even find time to even listen to my CDs let alone play some?I take ur words like a younger brother ?thanx Meera: I am not calling ppl who go to Community college FREAKs?no I go to one too. My point was to note how some of us just stick there like leaches from godawari?I have some hand in experience of encountering these ppl. What made me use the word freak was probably their lack of intent to finish and move on?they do it just to stay legal and it annoys me. Whateva: I definitely do not feel alone now. My post is long ass again. No I did not think Tom Dick or Harry would support me or give me money. My point was why is there not a way where we can legally work and support ourselves? Okei say no buying property, starting business and all that but just work honestly and study for a healthy wage. Why not? Thanx anyway? I thank most of you for ur feedback, Its honestly been therapeutic. But I still breed that negativity in me , the disgust towards how unjust life is. But that hate keeps me going? that Negative Energy pushes me to be victorious over that unjust and prove to myself that, no matter how life treats me I am going to overcome it and not let it hold me down. I think I am surrounded by a very wrong group of people because all the Nepalese I see around me are out of track and some of them have already lost it and some have give up. Now that I know u all I feel that yes I can make it too.