Ashish, Do you know why all of us are even bothering to reply to your thread? 1. At one point or another in our lives we have gone through something similiar. 2. We really feel your pain and frustration 3. We wanna let you know that whatever is happening to you is nothing new AND you are not alone... What is the difference between you and us you ask? 1. You decided to write out your frustrations... in a long ass essay mind you, without spell check! (Nothing wrong at all with that mind you... reading essays are just not my forte. 2. Called certain people freaks for no apparant reason. ITs not that they are not doing anything, they (okay exceptions are there) are working hard enough to achieve that goal. Even if you calculate it takes a whole freaking amount of time to make thousand(s) dollars with $7/ hour. 3. We (oh atleast me!) are proud to be Hopeful freaks. Whoever invented the concept was a genius. Why am I writing this? 1. To let you know you are not the only one! 2. Welcome to real life 3. How stupid were you really when you applied to come here? I mean did you think Uncle Sam is gonna gibe you thousands of dollars just because you say you are smart and have potential? 4. Think about it a minute. 5. Dont give up! Lastly, Goodluck! Time will get better... HOPE FREAK or not... it is something that keeps all of us going. No matter what. So dont lose that!