She didn?t know what to do. It was early in the morning and her eyes were still swollen with the tears she had wept last night. What a night it had been. She had vowed to herself that no matter what, she would not let go of him, but how could she stay on? How could she stay on a relationship that had made her weep everyday of the year? One year!! It had been a year and she was still hoping that everything would improve. Was she hoping against hope? She had no idea! All she knew was that every time she heard him say sorry she would forget all the hurts and go back to his arms. Her relationship had started as a game. A game of cards with four kings and four queens. Every time he had resulted as her king and her heart wanted to believe that he really was her king. Flirting resulted in innocent kisses and kisses resulted in an affair. He was the best guy she had ever known. Always listening to her, protecting her, loving her? Oh ya!! He was the perfect guy!!! The trouble started in the first month of their togetherness. Their first fight and his first accusation. He had not said sorry, and she had accepted his bitter words, hoping that it would end that day. But it did not end. It continued for months and months. She thought she was madly in love with him. He was just not good at words, and that was certainly not a reason to abandon him. After all he would not let go of her. They had been together for 5 months now. She had gone for a visit to his place and his computer was on. She wanted to check her mail so she went to the computer and noticed that he was still signed in. His mail was still open and she noted that the mail id was different. Temptation is an amazing thing. The strongest people cannot control themselves against it so how could she? She opened his mails and she saw a name she had never seen or heard. They were love mails? mails that included them and she was no where in it. Slowly she remembered the name. It was his friend- atleast he said that she was his friend. And he had blamed her once for doubting them.. and now this!! Does a dagger on the heart hurt more or the emotional hurt caused by a loved one? No one could probably answer this.. but at that time it felt like she was feeling the worse pain one could ever feel. She ran back home.. all the world turned from a beautiful bright heaven to a dark and gloomy hell. How could one lie straight on the face and not even move a muscle??? He found out. He came to her as soon as he could. Gave explanations? said that he wasn?t really into the girl and that he was only responding to her to keep her heart. He was her ex that he had never got rid of.. For five months,, and she hadn?t known a word of it. That morning she remembers the day and the pain is again fresh. Her heart bleeds but she had forgiven him. He was only human and he had told the girl that he loved only her. She thought he would change.. she loved him but TRUST? NO!!! She would never trust him.