ruina...hehe truthfully i dunno what others think..cos they have their own thinkings... if u ask me..yap i do like being called hajur..:o)..but well of cos u dun really know me..so it makes me think...am i being called hajur cos well thats the way u should call another who u dunno...in some ways it just shows u are nice etc..but in other ways it makes me think...are ppl being too nice to me..and not really telling me things..i should be called..hehe know what i mean ;o)..i dunno im quite confusing in explaning thats me hehe...and well i dun feel thi about you..but there are others...tho i dun like to say this...they say 'hajur' etc..just for natak ke...tho in real life they are diff..i know that ..cos i know them..well i think i know them...everyone has their own opinions dun they?i have mine and yap most of them might be wrong..but until im proven im wrong..well i will have these opinions dun i?just like others will have theiirs..well thats the way of the world..like it or not..have to live to with it..:o) and cheers..for kinda being caring :o)...i do hope the things im doing wont get me into more mess and shit...but well for today..i drank..cos well frens were drinking and could i say no?i wasnt brought up the way i was..and nah...me family does drink ..so i guess i dun mind drinking..but yap i do mind when i find someone being an alcoholic...cos i see it...i do think i wont be..yap i guess im thick like everyone else..arent we all?anyways i couldnt be the wet blanket..so had to drink...peer pressure aint it?arent we all affect by it?but i do know...i do say no..when i do think the occasiion aint suitable...and yap i have said no..tho it has hard...saying no is always hard aint it?today i couldnt say no...but next time i will say no..if well it aint the right situation...cos i dun wanna end up an alchoholic..tho i know there is a chance that i might end up as one..i guess i do like to test meself..cos well im thick..im screwed in me head..arent we all?hehe in some ways..i guess i do drink cos i wanna see if i can get addicted to it like some ppl...i have seen..and feel how they feel..and in some ways..do it..cos i wanna prove to meself that im right and i wont get addicted to it...like they are..and tell meself that if i can do it..maybe i can feel less uncomfortable to tell them to stop it..cos i do know how it feels to drink and i can do it..so why cant u?u know some ppl say we dun understand cos we never felt it?...and in other ways..well..yap so many scenarios we can think about..u get me idea dun u?too many there to list..but well we have our own reason...and yap screwed reasons...but in the end....nice to know someone..like u do cares :o).. in the end..if no one cared...how will this world be? cheers..:o) danny(the scrwwed wahahahaha..)