Indisguise, you are right. I feel kind of dead and reading eulogies from the spirit world. Strange experience I had yesterday when I went to buy a car: The Honda salesperson, an older African American, genuinely nice a SCI-FI addict/Trekki got me talking about parallel universes which he fervently believed in. He said, "what makes you think "you"(in another parallel universe) did not die in that same split second! I came away with an excellent deal; I promised to give him one of my favorite books: Fingerprints of The Gods by Graham Hancock. It's time the book left the dust on my bookshelf. One observation of mine about Sajhaites is that, they are forgiving, compassionate and friendly. Sajha has alotted me a refuge where I can interact, banter and make friends regardless of race, caste, creed, sexual orientation, academic degrees and/or status in the real world. I respect such a space. A Utopia, it is not but does Utopia exist... only in the form of a wishful idea like democracy. Yes, I am a skeptic. There are many who do like my writings (yes, I am honored) and there are many who do not, but still take the time to read and react. Regardless, each one has given me food for thought and an appreciation of human interaction. Sajha has been my playing field but more importantly, it has been a learning ground. As far as attention-seeking /enjoying; I escaped the accident with my humor as well as my ego intact. You see, had I NOT been born a baby with its first wailing/attention seeking cry, I would perhaps be assumed dead and burned alive. Since I howled a protesting, defiant howl with my very first glulp of oxygen, I was pronounced "Normal". Hence, the reason why I speak-- to be heard; why I write--to be read and why I come to sajha-- to read YOU. Confused has spent a lot of time analyzing and typing who Sitara is. I am flattered; and yes, I would have called up him from the spirit world. :) On Bhedo, one thing I have to say is, he is one of the most well-read people I have met in Sajha. He writes with a flair very few of us can compete with-- and no I am not refering to his prejudices and his colorful language. I still recognize many of his writings and his humor... yes, he is very much active. In defence of CZAR, one has to read him in all of his various forms to understand the figure behind the monitor. Like Moneyminded cannot be stricken off with one stroke of whiteout, neither can CZAR. As Nepeji correctly interpreted my political or lack thereof stance, I am not politically motivated. And yes, I can be damnably diplomatice in certain thing... that is because I am not interested. However, one question I do ponder up: What is THE defining line between the attrocities of Crown Prince Paras, RNA and the Maoist which gives them the status they now enjoy: as RULER, PROTECTOR and TERRORIST respectively. I believe in the Laws of the Universe, where they apply to all and sundry. Now, that we (including I) believe, we have sufficiently de-mystified Sitara, shall we move on to livelier subjects? So, who's having a New Year's Party?!!!!!!!!!! :) HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL! Ps. Piscers ji does your sajha email work? Will send you the guy's number.