Anything you do in life, you have to make a choice between the available options. If you keep wanting something that is not even an option then sorry to say but you do need to get real.

You can compare Nepal politics situation  to a personal dilemma. Let's say your close relative got into an accident and now the doctor comes to you and give you three options

1. Cut off leg to prevent infection
2. Inject with drugs which may work 50/50 but end up with bad side effects
3. Do extensive plastic surgery and transplant organs

The fact is if you love your relative enough you will make the decision that is least bad for the person because those are the only options available. If you don't choose any of the above then someone else will make a decision who may not make the correct decision. You don't have the option to say "All threee of the options suck THEREFORE I CHOOSE NONE OF THE ABOVE."

Same way if you love your country enough then you have to make a decision regarding which of the least evil you will choose so that someone else does not end up choosing the worst evil for you.