Juggy, You do not miss a second in reply back do you? Good friends like you have always encouraged me to write again, and now that few other good friends have suddenly returned from a brief hiatus, posting here would probably be much more fun than before. Pertaining to this post, I want people to judge me, judge me both in terms of honesty and perversion. One more issue that I failed to mention effectively in this post is, I never cheat to appease my carnal desires. I just cheat to love someone and be around them if that is cheating at all. Plus I want to know more levels of infidelity; and what exactly it means by it, aren’t we all infidel when we salivate at the racy picture of actresses? Nails, My pretty niece!!! Well I’d leave it up to you to decide whether it is a fact or fiction. (Wink, Wink). I am glad you got your winks back, and so did we. Imi, The smiley face in this context should have been a little different  Thanks Lootejyu, That is the first vote for honesty. Anyone voting for perversion??? Swantragamy and Xena, The world is delusive, but it is us who make it cruel, in a quest of making ourselves sanctified, pompous just for the heck of coercing with social values, condemning any emotion that gestate within. I am a different breed, the worst of all, therefore you do not have to take this gabble on a serious note, I never complained anything about my conjugal life, it is just that sometimes we all veer, and we do so emotionally. Sitarajyu, The queen of puns and repartees, and extraordinary narrating expertise, I hail your advent once again. Your compliments make me blush, I am a little embarrassed when a writer of your caliber praises something that is so mediocre. How many times should I reiterate I have learnt it from you? Got married re???? How could I handle two back-to-back heartbreaks? Anyways, I am in east coast, so I can possibly meet you and "bhinaju" someday. Republican, You are right, perhaps I have not, or perhaps there are too many perfect people on this planet I want to be close with. Flippy my Bama girl, Well, my writings are not worth adulation because I write for myself most of the times, it vents my aggravation. And an attention seeker that I am, I vent it on public forums. But anyways, I am not an Alabamian now, moved to New England recently, as far as new year is concerned, I might not celebrate. It just makes me feel older. Audrey, Let us leave the debate between fact and fiction aside, it might be too bold to be true, but then how well do people know me anyways. I have played enough sudoku, but to write at sajha needs solving arduous crosswords. Born to rule, Thank you, it was just an ordinary trinket out of my wearing backpack certainly not worth eulogy. Samsara, Well, that was certainly not a booty call, that was just a beautiful conversation go awry after sometime, is that what they call a booty call? I have never received one before. Thanks for visiting, the line you have highlighted is that of a defeated person, I could not find better words to express how I felt. Camoflagged, Now you make me blush like Sitara did, I am just an ordinary writer who has done something wrongful, is confused, and demanding a valid justification. As far as courage goes, I never really cared about how others felt about me as long as I believed what was right or even wrong, but we are talking about feelings here, we are not abandoning my wife for someone else or raping a female. If loving a woman outside a marital life was guilt; then I am culpable for sure. World_map, Thanks, I wish I could write more, I had once vowed not to write, but then I do not keep my promises, a pervert that I am. Sitara and Jyotishi re? Wow, you certain keep tracks of all long forgotten threads here, I salute your recollecting aptitude. Kalanki, I do not know about others, but I guess I did. Cerine and uptowngal, Thanks for visiting, it is just a pointless ramble. Sndy, I am honored to be your favorite writer, the compliment however is undeserved, I am a mean person who writes without thinking, and then regrets not editing. Even then you find it as an interesting read, I am speechless with gratitude. Worldmaven, Thanks for kind words, but if it were a disaster, it was my call. But yes, conscience rules because I was not into an immoral attraction. Pervertedmind, After writing this anecdote, I might as well steal your pseudonym. Thanks for visiting and all your kind words, I write at sajha when I do not find anything else to do, more often my own stories which had never been told to any other soul. If this feeble effort reaches out to the hearts of people like you, I am honored. I have mentioned New Haven for sure but I do not reside there, not all stories are without a little fabrication. Well, my email is here at sajha, just write if you feel like. Pretty, Thanks, but in medieval age, people like me would have been stoned, I do not need an applause, I just need a justification. Tamanglady, Sometimes sins are so dear to you, you chose it over the virtues. Perhaps that was the case, I was so blindfolded by rose petals I could not see the reality caving in. Thanks for your beautiful words, I am gratified. Angeleyes, Flawless re? really? I always find a way to edit my stories in a more effective way after I write, and accidentally post it. And cried re? almost???? Was it really so moving? I thought I was the only emotional fool around. Wow, I am flattered. Thanks for your kind words, readers like you actually make me believe I am not really a pig. Oys, I am glad you saw the smoldering emotions, trepidation and guilt in between lines, perhaps that makes you a good observant which you readily depict in your memory lanes, is it the water from "gahana pokhari"? Meera, Ouch! that hurt, but then what is cheating? I do not agree to the rules set by the society, I never did and I never will. As far as emotions are concerned I believe in sharing them in equal proportions, if you can love both your parents at the same time, along with two more of your siblings, why cannot you love two women likewise. As far as the hell breaking loose is concerned, you should, by far must have known what a awful breed I am, I am far too liberal to be a sexist.