Well let me climb the lecture podium and impart some wisdom ;-) 1. The fact that you hesitated MIGHT mean there is a part of you who does not want to marry this guy. Give it a thought. 2. If you think you are sure that this is the guy you want to spend rest of your life with, then what is holding you on calling him and asking him to marry you? Do you HAVE to wait for him to propose? Again? If I were him, I would definitely be having second thoughts. You court someone for 4 years, think you know her inside out, are willing to get down on a knee despite all the negativities of the family, and what happens? The girl gives typical Nepali Bureaucrat's "bholi aaunus" when asked to make a decision that should be easiest in life. Girl, if you love him, before the crack on your relationship becomes Grand Canyon, run after him and yell YES, NOW!!!!!!