Let me tell you the truth. I am not with my ex neither we talk. But, yes I think of her. I regret that I was not able to give her a second chance. This is what is killing me. I am kinda guy who doesn't make false promises. If I make, I try my best to make them true. In some extent, I tried too but I got my ego hurt from her. Only reason I gave up on her. And it it killing me. Was it a reason to give up?

I need some kinda therapy guys. I am in a difficult situation. I strongly believe that I made a mistake by giving up on her. And it kills me everyday.

Secondly, when we met a week before my wedding, we exchanged kisses. I knew that I was marrying the other girl but I now think like why did I kiss her? Another point of regretting here.

Third, I told her that I was getting married when she texted me back two days after Valentine's Day. Actually she called me to meet up on Valentine's Day but when I asked to meet. She said she didn't call me and she wasn't sure about the relation. So I said 'yes' to my wife for marriage. Then family fixed my wedding date.

Forth, my ex didn't believe that I was getting married. She though I was just making her jealous. When we met, I asked her to run away and get married in the court but she said nothing. So I couldn't cancel my wedding. What I thought at that time was it was wasting of time with her since she didn't seem serious.

What I believe now is why did I have to get married? Why did I have to ruin two lives? Why ? It's not a point that I couldn't marry my ex, my point is I had to forget the ex first and then get married after a year or so. These feeling are what are killing me.

Why ? Why ? Why did I do this?

Thank you all for your geniune replyes.